Daily Struggle

Thursday 8th November 2018

I sometimes have a hard time thinking of the future. Am I going to be okay? Am I on the right path? Do I even know what I am doing? I question everything that I do and at times, I struggle to see if it’s right or wrong.

Today’s bible text comes from Matthew 6:34 which reads “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Tomorrow’s troubles belong to tomorrow. Worry about today and live today to it’s fullest. Sometimes it’s best if you just focus on what is happening today, on what is happening right now. The future is daunting but sometimes the best thing to do is just live today out first and deal with tomorrow when it comes.

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Tuesday 6th November 2018

So it has been a LONG time since I last wrote on here and I guess it is time to start again. Instead of just struggles I will try and post bible texts, thoughts and anything that generally come to mind.

Today, I just wanted to share a bible text that has given me encouragement and has lifted my spirits. As a young person within a church that is very structured with a lot of paths to choose from, it can be very hard to know your calling and to be able to stand on your own two feet. I am thankful that I attend a church that loves our young people and who always value our contribution but with all the opportunities, it is hard to know what you should do. I think this was something that I had struggled with in knowing whether I should do Children’s ministry or Youth ministry, maybe do Personal Outreach Ministry or many of the other ministries that all leads to the same goal of serving our Heavenly Father.

I am not done thinking (or more like over thinking) and have yet to really choose but I guess I just wanted to encourage other young people out there to get involved. Get to know your church and how it operates and do not be afraid to put your hand up and volunteer for things. Do not listen to people who say that you are too young or do not know what to do because with God as your guide, how can you go wrong?

Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity.”
1 Timothy 4:12

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Thursday 23rd June 2016

Finding out that you will not be able to see your brother when you were expecting to is seriously heartbreaking. It is that moment when you realise that you would have to wait another couple of months even years till you see him again. Having two older brothers who live is different countries to you is honestly no fun. We not only do not get to see each other but struggle to find time to even talk due to hectic daily schedules that at times give no space for freedom. Whenever I am free neither one of them are and vice versa. It is this whole game of circles that I do not know if it will ever stop. What I hate most is feeling disconnected from them. Like, I feel as if they have now settled down with their wives and kids and I have not had the time to catch up with them on all the is happening.

My oldest brother I have met his kids and wife and absolutely adore them. Such a cute family and I can honestly see what the kids have inherited from their father. I wish to see them more but with them living so far away I can only visit so often. I love them so much! Their cute little faces with their different personalities. I love each and every quirky thing about them and pray that they grow up healthy and strong with great minds and a loving heart. They will do bright things in the future one day and make me the proudest aunty!

The second brother however, I have not yet to meet his family. His wife is gorgeous (and I always wonder how he managed to get her to marry him) and his children thankfully took after her… just kidding! My brother’s kids are beyond lucky to have him as a dad even though his daughters may not think so when they grow up a little but more. After being given the chance to name his eldest and only son (which was a lot of pressure for a sixteen year old girl) I was more than touched that they thought of me to do the honours. I hope one day to be able to see them face to face rather than on a screen in two separate locations.

Life is hard but it is what makes me stay strong and grounded. If not for these two and the amount of love that they had given me as a child, my childhood would not have been as great. Looking back now, they were in every milestone of my life. Growing up they have always been there for me. It is true that I became distanced in the last couple of years but what is a girl to do? When she thinks she knows it all and can do it all, of course she will think that she is too good to talk to her brothers. It is only until recently when I thought of how childish I am being and how I truly do miss them. Take the chance while you still have it!

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