“Sometimes memories sneak out of my eyes and roll down my cheeks”
No matter how strong we pretend we are or how brave we think we are, life sometimes just sneaks up and bites you and you remember all the things that had gone bad at one point or another. It’s that moment when you just stop and all your failures and previous mistakes just hit you all at once in one hard emotional package.
My life as not been as hard as others and I know a lot of people would look at me and would never say it to my face but would secretly judge me saying that I am complaining over nothing. I know I have a lot to be thankful for but like I always say, unless you really walk a mile in someone’s shoes you really don’t know their life. I only share half of who I am with others and which side you see really depending on who you are in my life. I don’t tend to share a lot of personal opinions, though I do share what I think a lot, and people don’t always see what I go through.
I believe that sometimes you just need to let it out. To cry and let your emotions take over because bottling things up will just lead you to explode. When I was younger I use to just keep quiet and not say anything. My brothers we considerably older than me and well, they’re boys. They tend to understand each other more than they did me. My experiences growing up were different to that of my parents as well so I truly did feel like there was no one to talk to. People my age didn’t experience things that I had gone through and so it did really feel like I had no one to turn to. If I could go back to my younger self now, I would tell her to just let it out. Talk to anyone and everyone who would listen. To talk till they tell you to shut up and that sharing is a lot better than overthinking it on your own.
Life has a funny way of making you remember things that you so desperately wish you could forget and sometimes in those moments you just need to need to let it out. Cry! Let your emotions take over. You don’t need to share this time with anyone and you don’t even need to let people know you are doing it. This can be an intimate time and sometimes that time alone to cry is needed to just release all the toxins that is in your mind. Sometimes it’s great to have someone there with you and at times, those tears are for you only. Those memories sneaking out and rolling down your face is not always a bad thing! You don’t need to always be strong.
Have a little faith, talk it out, cry it out and let it all go.